Saturday, June 23, 2012

I am infinite

God had sent prophets all over the world. God says in Qur'an that there had not been any community without a prophet chosen from them. The most important message and lesson of prophets was not to worship anything other than God, the one who is not imaginable, who is above any other thing, who is infinite. Consider the names of God in different religions, they didn’t have any meaning. God even didn’t want to let people worship those names.
Were the prophets successful?
When we look at the history around the Earth, we see that most people have worshiped and still worship something imaginable. Some of them worship man-made or legendary gods, some other worship their heroes or holy characters or leaders, some other worship money or job or esteem, etc. They even worship God’s names instead of infinity. History is full of wars between followers of one name and followers of another name.
God had sent prophets one after another to remind people that they should not worship those imaginable and bounded things. But people either didn’t accept or accepted jut for a short period; and now, having access to all those messages and histories, still few people on the Earth worship infinity. Why?
Well, a very quick answer is that because always there are ones who profit from this deviation. However, I think this is not the only answer. Worshiping the infinity has too many effects on our lives. It means that anything non-infinite cannot be our goal. It cannot panic us. It cannot be too much important for us. We cannot believe in something because some holy one has done that or said that. We have to prove everything and believe by our minds. We have to obtain wisdom. We have to look inside ourselves, find the truth by ourselves, know ourselves, and flourish.
As we are infinite, as we are gods on the Earth, we can obtain whatever we want. The more we know our capabilities and the more we want, the more we obtain. We’ll be responsible for our condition and what we are. We cannot soothe ourselves by things like destiny. If we had some bounded and imaginable god in front of us, we could not expect ourselves more than that; so, we would be satisfied by our condition. By having the infinity in front of us, we always expect more from ourselves. Our condition would be the result of our thoughts and doings. We’ll be free and freemen.
Being free and unbounded is not easy. Human beings tend to search for bounded support.  It gives them sense of safety. They like to think there are some imaginable thinks above them and consider them responsible for what happens and what they want.
Ali ibn Abi Talib says the real believes are the most active people. They are those who have known themselves and their capabilities.




Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Finding the goal of my life



After months thinking about my life and my goal in life, finally I could convince myself to take my phd degree. Actually I found a place for it in my life plan. After seeing those treatments and immoralities from my supervisor and some other professors, I asked myself “Do I really want to take my degree in this university? Where am I going? Do I want to work in such a dirty environment?”
It was not just that. I saw my best friends changed. I was changing, too. I was passing the way the others had passed. I could recognize ugly behaviors in my friends’. I could see some ugly thoughts in my heart. It was shocking. I didn’t want a success in my job with any price. I had to fight with myself. It took a while to create another atmosphere around myself with new people and see beauties of the life again.
I learned a lot during this time. Yesterday while looking to the flowers, suddenly I felt that feeling of loving the life and appreciation for being alive, for a few seconds. I hadn’t experienced that for 9 months. I found that I’m on the true path.
I don’t think about their behavior and what they told me anymore. Thinking about those small creatures makes my thought small.