Years run after each other and I’m following them as fast as I can. Not much is remained. Death is just a few steps over there. And it’s a while that some thoughts don’t leave me: what have I done? What am I going to do? What’s the goal of my life? How should I spend my time? Am I going to have any children? Why?
I won’t be surprised if something happens for my country. Actually I’m counting the moments for that. It’s the rule of the world. When people are so bad, we should expect the punishment in this world. But we are already in the hell. The country and the people are destroying gradually. The government ruins the resources of the country. The air becomes polluted more and more. The prices increase rapidly. There is no freedom. Nothing is remained from morality other than a thin shell.
All of us, people of this country are drowning in the swamp of immorality. I do not talk about other countries, because it’s irrelevant to me. Just I know that many of them have the same situation. This is the nature of human. A creature who can decide, who can select; and this selection could be a bad one. The natural result is that some of them decide to traverse the wrong ways. Some choose to put power and money in priority. Some choose to be selfish. Some choose to squash others rights without any discomfort. Some choose to lie just considering their own temporary benefits.
It does not surprise me when I watch the history. There you can see people who killed each other, kings and leaders who were drown in their power, poor people who bowed these kings, people who ruined the earth and the nature for their benefits, etc.
I can still see them, here, around me. And I’m asking this question all the time: have I become one of them? I can see that stealing others’ achievements has become routine in the university, which is expected to be one of the most moral communities. I see professors who abuse their colleges, I see professors who do not do anything for their students and expect their scientific results.
Now, I’m sure that morality is independent of education. We are like hungry wild animals tearing each other; and I’m trying to withdraw myself from this battlefield.
Thanks God, I’m not a man. It’s not my responsibility to earn money. I do not have to go outside all the week. I chose to stay at home most of my time.
